case study: the independent scholar
The number of hobbies I engage in, and the proportion with which they monopolize my time, perplexes me. Writing is one of those hobbies; it pops in and out of my life frequently enough to hold my interest, yet not anchored enough to stay.
At five years old I wrote and drew picture books for immediate family, crafted from computer paper, staples, and possibly crayons.
At twenty-six, I hyper-fixated on the concept of bullet journaling, convinced that it would help me commit to journaling (this actually did work).
At twenty-seven, I created a private blog on WordPress to document structured pieces out of recurring themes that popped up in my private journal. I revisited this same blog for a brief time three years later. The blog has an estimated total of five entries over this three year span.
At thirty-five, I discovered Notion and tried to fashion my own Notion brand, combining several hobbies (writing included, writing always included) to try to find a bridge that can link all of these projects that start with enthusiasm and quickly fizzle into disinterest.
I am thirty-six now, and have doubled down on all of the above in an attempt to use the concept of independent study to satisfy all of my professional and creative goals.
My newest fixation is on dark academia, as immersive role play and scholarly practice through a personal curriculum. To help me feel like this is not a waste of time and energy, I am focusing it on a current professional dilemma that has plagued me.
This blog doesn't really need an introduction because, although public facing, it is essentially private. I am introducing it for my own accountability and an attempt to push through the embarrassment I feel over wanting to write for years and not ever actually writing anything.
Welcome to The Impostor Scholar. My personal space to indulge creative whims, practice applied research in accounting, develop communication skills (+confidence), and refine my longterm career goals. I am currently working on my first applied research paper, which I will post here when it is finished.
I hope this becomes the digital diary and portfolio I have always wanted to create.
With love and ever-changing interests,
[REDACTED], CPA